Thursday, October 27, 2011

Halloween is almost here!

Here's some animals in costumes to get you in the Halloween spirit!

above pictures found here

^^This one is my favorite!

above pictures found here

What are all of you dressing up as for Halloween?
I'm actually going to look for a Snow White costume today.
Wish me luck that there aren't only clown costumes this late in the game haha.

Monday, October 24, 2011

"Life's tough, get a helmet" & Recap of date #1 with Airport Guy

Last Wednesday night, I got some bad, life altering, news from my Mom.
That's all I can really say for now. No one is dying but it sure does almost feel that way.
Needless to say, I was a mess at work on Thursday. Crying off and on at my desk.
It wasn't pretty.

If you remember in my last post, I was hoping to meet airport guy on Thursday evening.
I almost cancelled.

The thought of having a couple drinks and then crying on a first date, would've been terrible. But, I calmed myself down, and decided that it would actually be good for me to go and get out of the house. Plus, I'd been looking forward to meeting him.
So, I went.

We met at 8 for drinks downtown. I got there first and ordered a drink and sat in a cozy little booth until he arrived. He walked in looking even cuter than his pictures, which obviously made me even more nervous. He sat down and we immediately started talking about music and what concerts are coming up that we're looking forward to.

At first, even though the conversation was going well,
I noticed that he wasn't really making eye contact with me when he was talking.
Crap! I thought. I must look different than he expected and he doesn't like me!

Well, after a few more drinks, and more talking, before I knew it we were making out!
The no eye contact thing must have been because of nervousness.
Because of the drinks, I can't exactly remember how it happened, unfortunately.
I remember him getting closer to me and putting his hand on my leg, but
I don't remember how/when he went in for the first kiss.
Either way, he was a great kisser!

So, we made out for, I'm guessing maybe 30 minutes. Then I mentioned I hadn't eaten dinner (mostly because of the bad news, I'd somewhat lost my appetite), so we decided to go to a late-night pizzeria. The pizza was great! We sat in a booth.. he sat next to me instead of across, which I thought was cute.

After we left the pizzeria, it was around midnight, I think,
 and he suggested that we go sit in a park that was nearby.
We walked there and sat on a park bench, and made out like teenagers.
Finally, we decided it might be about time to head home (we both had
about a 30 minute drive to get home), so he walked me to my car.
He got in and we kissed a little more, and then it was 1am and time to go.

Verdict of the date: I'm actually giddy after our date. I don't want to get ahead of myself, but I haven't had so much chemistry on a first date, in a long time. We've been texting non-stop and I think it's safe to say, we'll be seeing each other quite a bit more. I actually went to his place to watch a movie Friday night. Had a great time again, so maybe I am getting my hopes up a little too quickly, but it feels good to meet someone you have an instant connection with.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

John Cusack holding a boombox. That's what I want!

The other night, I was taking the sweet two year-old that I babysit home to her mom. On my way home I just really started thinking about life. I sat in my car, in my driveway, and cried and prayed. I'm not an extremely religious person, but I do believe there is a God out there. I believe that He wants the best for me, and that lately I've totally ignored him and taken my own path in life. I've been extremely lonely and discouraged. But, I have to say, it's comforting to me to know that I'm not alone. Even if I'm physically alone, God is always there. I guess this is part of my journey to realizing that it's ok to be alone. The holidays are coming up, which are always depressing to me when I'm single. And I better have a date to my sister's wedding! But if I don't I'l have my family.

On to happier topics!

So, I was supposed to have a date this past Saturday. I relaxed most of the day and watched tv. Finally, got my butt out of bed to get ready and decided to go see Contagion by myself, since none of my friends wanted to go. It was good! Anyway, I was supposed to meet up with.. we'll call him airport guy, since that's where he works, at about 10:30. I got out of the movie at 9:35 and had just received a text from him saying that he's sorry but he was really tired and would rather meet up when he's more lively.

I'm not gonna lie, I was a bit pissed! He waited till the absolute last minute to cancel. Whereas, I'd been ready since about 7. I told him it was fine, no problem. In my head, I was thinking that this was a blowoff and there probably wouldn't ever be a date. I went to Target and bought Gossip Girl season 4 on dvd and picked up taco bell on my way home.

I watched Gossip Girl in bed till about 2am when I got a text. It was from airport guy, seeing if I was still awake. I responded that I was and he called me. We talked for about 2 hours. The conversation flowed well and I decided that maybe there would be a date after all.

We're supposed to meet tomorrow night. I'm not holding my breath, but I do hope we get to go out because we have a lot in common. I've already made it clear to him that I'm looking for something long term and that I'm not getting physical with anyone until feelings are involved.

I feel like that's a lot of the problem with online dating. Trying to decipher which ones are really looking for the right girl and which ones are looking for just sex. For example, the engineer, I'm pretty sure is looking for purely something physical. I haven't completely cut off communication with him, but most of the texts he sends are "I'm horny", "Come over", "My bed is lonely". Ok dude, I get it, you want someone in your bed. But after only one date with me, it's not happening! Dating shouldn't go from one date to sex. Especially, when he didn't even pay for the date.

I'm starving for some romance and chivalry, people! Women are all prizes and should be treated so (ok maybe not ALL, but most of us). I'm not asking for anything crazy. Plan a date, and offer to pick me up and I'll be impressed. I'd like to be chased and have someone work for me. It's partly my fault though for not letting the chasing happen and being too available.

I swear, I would marry the man that did this for me. I'm not even kidding.

I'm all for cheesy romance like that.

Anyway, I went to my weigh-in on Monday and I had gained 1.4lbs. I wasn't at all surprised. I'd eaten crap all week, but I'm doing great this week so I'm hoping for a loss.

Everybody cross their fingers that I'll get to meet airport guy tomorrow haha. Now go out and find you some romance!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Recap of Date #1 with "the engineer"

I have to admit, I was extremely nervous about this date. His online profile stated that he was 5'8". I'm 5'6", so that's taller than me, but if he exaggerated even an inch, I was going to feel like a giant. Plus, he's very thin, so had he really been 5'6", I was going to be awkwardly bigger than him. You never want to be bigger than a guy you're dating! Anyways, he looked cute in all his pictures; he has numerous tattoos and small gauges in his ears. All of which are turn ons for me.

We decided to meet at a local pizza place for dinner at 7. I made myself a small drink as I was getting ready, just to ease my nerves. I wore a black dress, black leggings, a bright red cardigan and white ballet flats (to make myself as short as possible). He texted me and said he was sitting outside the restaurant on a bench. I parked behind the building, fluffed my hair a little, and headed towards the front entrance.

I walked around the corner, said hey and he stood up to hug me, and thank God, he was taller than me. We walked in the restaurant, and it was completely empty. We sat at a booth and started talking immediately. The conversation flowed pretty easily, but I could tell he was pretty nervous.  We had some amazing pizza and complimentary chocolate cake. The bill came and we continued to talk for a bit. He asked me what my plans were the rest of the evening, (it was only 8), and I said I didn't really have any. So he suggested we go back to his place to watch a movie. I was a tad hesitant since this was a first date, but I agreed since things had gone well so far. He pulled out his wallet, and I did the polite thing and offered to pay for half of our $15 pizza, which he took me up on. This bothered me a little. I mean, I know I offered, but this was a first date, and the bill was only $15, AND he's an engineer, which means he probably makes stupid money. Oh well.

We settled the bill and left in our seperate cars to his apartment. We got inside and he showed me his Apollo 13 pinball machine (I'm not gonna lie it was fun), but it's a total bachelor pad. He started going through his movies and decided on "Peewee's Big Adventure".... Really?

So he puts this ridiculous movie in. It's somewhat funny. He keeps moving closer to me. Finally, the damn movie is over and he puts Conan on. He keeps asking me if I'm nervous, to which I said a little.

He has kind of a nerdy vibe, which is cute. He turns to me and starts kissing me. It wasn't bad, just unfamiliar. I tend to bite bottom lips when I kiss, and apparently that got him pretty worked up, which honestly, wasn't my intention. We made out for a good 20 minutes and then he started getting a little handsy. I'm not usually opposed to this, but come on, it's a first date! I told him that I should leave soon, because I didn't want more to happen. Ofcourse, he protested, but he is a man. I ended up leaving about 11. He walked me down to my car and kissed me some more. The goodbye was a little awkward and then when I turned around, he slapped my ass. I think he was really nervous, I don't know, because he immediately admitted he didn't know why he did this.

We've been texting today quite a bit and have both concluded that we'd like to go out again.

Verdict on date#1 with "the engineer":
I had fun. I want to see him again. But, do I honestly see a long term relationship coming from it? Probably not. Is this wrong, when I'm so ready to find my guy? Should I be alone, rather than hang out with cute guys that I'm moderately compatible with? I'm not sure of the answer to this yet.

Monday, October 10, 2011

What's up with me seeing all my exes?

My weekend was insanely busy! Friday evening, I hung out and had drinks with Kristena at her apartment before meeting another online boy downtown for a drink. This boy is a musician in a band and has tattoos (so my style!). So, he lives in Dallas/Fort Worth too. What is it with me never finding boys that live here?! Anyway, he is here in Houston, 4-5 days a week recording with his band though, and will be for the next 5 months. So, that's good atleast.

Recording went longer than he expected, so us meeting was getting pushed further and further back. After all this, I was hardly expecting much from him, honestly. I figured he would be a self-centered douche and my excitement had decreased greatly. Finally, around 11:30pm, he said they were finished and that I could come out to meet him, if it wasn't too late. So I did.. I figured what the hell? I was awake and dressed cutely so why not?

After a 45 min drive to get near where he was staying, we finally met at Sherlocks Baker Street pub on Westheimer. He was cute. Looked almost exactly like his pictures and was, to my surprise, extremely polite.
We got in and up to the bar, and he asked me what I wanted to drink and if I wanted a shot. We took our shots at the bar and then sat down with our drinks.

The conversation flowed very well. We have almost identical taste in music and we're both Irish. I found out he's 29, has been married once (when he was 20), and that he's a dog lover, huge plus! Talked about our past jobs, our passions and made fun of the wasted people stumbling around.

Before we knew it, the lights were on and bouncers were kicking everyone out. We walked out to our cars and he told me he wasn't ready for me to leave yet. We decided to head to IHOP for some yummy breakfast food. We ended up sharing a breakfast plate and chatting some more. At about 4am, I decided it was time for me to leave. I had my sister's bridal shower the next day at noon so I needed to get some sleep.

He walked me to my car, hugged me, and told me he thought I was fantastic and that he wanted to get together again. I got in my car and started heading home, when he called to tell me to let him know when I got home or he wouldn't be able to sleep, which I thought was pretty sweet.

My verdict on the date with "the musician":
It went well and I definitely wouldn't mind seeing him again, but I'm still not expecting much to come of it. We'll see though!

Now, to Saturday. I had my sister's bridal shower that afternoon. Then, we went to pick up her wedding dress and go shopping. Her birthday is tomorrow, and I told her, for her present, she could pick out a Bachelorette Party outfit. So we shopped in Forever21 and picked out jewelry too. Then, we had to go to Victoria's Secret to meet up with my mom and her fiance's mom.

So, we're just walking around the mall, and who do I see? My ex, J (high school sweetheart)! We were about 25 feet away, and he and his fiance' are walking towards us. I turn to my sister and say, "Omg, Omg, Omg!". She doesn't even see him so she's like, "What? What's going on?". They continue to get closer and I know he sees me. So when they get closer, he starts talking to his ugly fiance' and COMPLETELY turns his head when they pass us. My sister finally realizes why I was freaking out.

Ok, I get it, you're engaged and you're with your fiance'. Yes, saying hello would've been a tad awkward, but you know what? We were together for almost 6 years. Do I not deserve a smile and a quick "hey"? Because that's all I was going to do. Say hey and keep walking. I have more pride than to stop and talk to them. If I hadn't been caught so off guard I would've been like, "Hey J!! How are you?" Just to make him feel awkward. I went to dinner with Kristena and told her all about it, (she knew him in high school too) and she was just as mad as me. She texted him and all she said was, "Dick move, bro". Ha, I love it. I hope it makes him feel like a jerk, and it should. As much as I've told myself that I'm completely over him, I'm just not. He was my first love and I still dream about him almost every night. But, oh well, that's life!

On a brighter note, I have another date tomorrow night. Different boy. We'll call him "the engineer". He works for Boeing, has tattoos and plugs and is very cute. You know I'll be letting you know how it goes!

Also, I weigh in tonight, so I'll have my weigh-in results tomorrow as well.

Hope you're all having a good Monday!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Weigh-in #3!

Just a quick post about my weigh-in!

So, after the weekend I had, I was almost sure I gained or atleast stayed the same. But, to my surprise I had lost 0.6 lbs. It's a small loss, but hey, could've been much worse! I'm really focused this week and determined not to eat over my plan points. So far, so good!

Starting weight: 195

Week 3 weight: 188.8

Total loss so far: -6.2lbs

Monday, October 3, 2011

Tales of three drunken twenty-somethings

Hi everyone!
Boy, did I have an interesting weekend.

Friday was the Incubus concert. They were A-MA-ZING, as always.
So my best friend, Kristena, and I had lawn tickets. We're bopping around and screaming (I lost my voice ladies), and just enjoying the presence of Brandon Boyd.

Then Kristena sees my ex walking down by the seats (probably 25 feet in front of us). I'm like, "Yeah that really does look like him! I'm gonna text him and see!" Now this is not a previously mentioned ex. I dated this guy about 2 years ago. We were together about 8 months and it was semi-serious. But he had some major issues that I couldn't deal with any longer, we'll leave it at that. Anyways, I text him and ask if he's at the concert..blah blah.. He eventually (after the concert is over) says yes that was him. He was with a girl and I think he was afraid I was going to run up to him or something.. Puhlease. We texted the next day back and forth, mostly small talk and that was it.

Fast-forward to Saturday evening. I had plans to go out with most of my friends for an old coworker's 21st birthday. So we all pregame a little bit but we're taking my car so I don't have much. We get to Lucie's Liquor in downtown Houston. We start getting drinks, taking shots and having a good ol' time. My other best friend, Kelly and I head to the dancefloor. We start dancing with some foreign guys. Maybe Italian.. I don't know. The one in front of me grabs my boob! I don't mean one little grab.. Like he is full-on squeezing my boob in his hand over and over. EW! So I push him off me as hard as I can. I can't stand men like that.
Kelly and I continue to dance and then a hot bartender starts pouring shots down people's throats. We run over and get some for ourselves and keep dancing.

We walk back over to the bar where our tabs are at and who do I see? The ex I saw the night before's BROTHER! Weird coincidence. I talk to him for a bit.. Probably made a fool of myself. I tell him that I saw his brother at Incubus the night before. Then, he proceeds to tell me that my ex is MARRIED and was at the concert with his WIFE! Talk about fucking shocking me! I'm surprised he found anyone to put up with his shit! I was mature and was just like, "Good for him" you know?

Then... all hell broke loose. I don't know if the alcohol just all happened to hit me at once or what, but I started bawling my eyes out. Like the kind of loud crying you do at home and don't want anyone to see. I remember telling Kelly, as she was holding my cheeks and wiping my tears, that all my exes are married or engaged. Which, is pretty much true. If you dont know those stories read here and here. I just felt like, if that jackass found someone to marry, what the fuck is wrong with me?

So here I am, having a major meltdown in a crowded bar. I hope to God that my ex's brother didn't see me. Geez. So all of this happened, then Kelly throws up in her glass. So, obviously, bouncers are coming up and saying that she is too drunk. I start yelling, "No, she's not!!!!!!" The thought of all this cracks me up. I've been crying so my face is all red, probably with mascara running down my face, and I'm telling the bouncers that my friend, who just vomitted all over the place, is not too drunk. Real classy, Brittany, real classy.

We go to the bathroom to clean ourselves up. Don't really remember much about that. Then we find out that our group does, in fact have to leave. As we're leaving, we walk by the brother again, and my friend, Kristena flips him off right in his face. I wish I remembered that because I'm sure the look on his face was priceless. I continued to cry all the way to the car.. the entire way home (no, I did not drive). I think I fell a couple times, because my ankle hurts today like I twisted it. Although, I think I was near being sober when we got back home, I was still so overcome with emotion.

 I drunk texted my ex (J my highschool sweetheart). Thank God I only said "Hey" and didn't embarrass myself too bad since he's fucking engaged. I swear my drunk little hands just have a mind of their own with my phone.

To top it all off... I drove through Whataburger and ate a burger and fries when I got home. Let me remind you, my 3rd weigh-in is today. UGH I'm mad at myself for that. If I ever wondered whether I was an emotional eater, I think we all know the answer to that now. Hopefully that one meal isn't going to make me gain this week.

I hope you all had a less-dramatic weekend than I did! :)