Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Notes from The Universe

Yep.The Universe sends me notes.

Oh, you mean you don't...?

Well then sign up for them! :)

The presumption, Pretty Girl, at all times and under all circumstances, should always be that you are good enough, worthy enough, and lovable enough. And that you are exactly the right kind of person, in the right place, at the right time. Otherwise, you wouldn't have been instilled with such dreams in the first place.

Love you,
The Univer

All you do is go to this site, give your email, dob, and then a couple of your goals, and you'll start receiving encouraging emails that are personalized for you. I think it's a cool way, no matter what your religious beliefs are, to just get cool little love notes reminding you that you're not alone.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Liebster Blog


Yes that's the noise I made when I saw that the awesome, Marie, from MarjaLovely gave me the "Liebster" blog award! Thank you, Thank you! :) I appreciate it more than you know!

So, the Liebster blog award is for blogs with less than 200 followers. It's great for new or up-and-coming blogs!

The Rules
1. Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link back to their site.
2. Copy and paste the Liebster Award logo to your blog.
3. Choose five more up-and-coming bloggers who you feel deserve the award and hope that they will in turn nominate five more.

Here are my picks so go check, check, check em' out!!!

I effed up with Apple Guy..

Bear with me. This post may be all over the place.

Ok, so this past Saturday, I went over to Apple Guy's apartment and made sangria for us to drink before going to his roommate's concert. I had three glasses and was feeling good. He drove us there, and we got there and I met up with my best friend, Kelly and her husband. He went and chatted with his friends. His roommate's band did absolutely amazing! By the time they left the stage, I was drunkity drunk. I think I'd had 4 drinks and 2 shots. Kelly and I decided to sit down between bands and drink some water.

As a single woman in her twenties, I have a bad habit of texting inappropriate things to boys. Whether they're guy friends or ex-f buddies. I know, I know, bad Brittany. Please tell me I'm not the only one? Please notice I said, As a single woman, because that's what I am. And no, I don't text random boys when I'm in a relationship.

Anyways... I just wanted to explain that. Back to Kelly and I.. We sit down, and I realize I can't find my phone. I was sitting on it, but was ridiculously drunk out of my mind. So, Apple Guy says he'll hold it in his pocket for me. I hand it over and Kelly says that I jokingly said, "Don't look through it, dammit!" and laughed. I don't remember saying that. He disappears somewhere and I go watch the next band. I keep looking all around the small venue for him and he's nowhere to be found. I even walked out to the smoking area once, but no luck. He was gone over an hour, with my cash, ID, and my phone.

Finally, after the band finishes, I finally find him. Kelly and her husband decide to head home. I was still down to go somewhere else after. But, Apple Guy said he wanted to go home. I wasn't in any sort of shape to argue. He asks when we get close to his place, if I'm hungry. Oh, I forgot to mention all I'd eaten that day was a half chicken salad sandwich. That's all. Not smart, I know, so I was starving. We drive through Jack in the Box and get 6 tacos.

We get into his apartment, and I sit down at the island, which has bar stools. He gets a serious look on his face and says, "Ok we need to have a talk, and it's not going to be a good talk". I'm like alright.. He says, "Well, I went into that bathroom and I was peeing and I heard a phone in my pocket go off. I thought it was mine so I pulled it out and started reading the text message. I was not happy with what I found, and I admit I read back and saw that you've been talking for quite awhile." I'm sure I had a shocked look on my face. I have a pink case on my iphone by the way. No way he'd think it was his once he pulled it out, but that's beside the point. I asked him what texts he was talking about and who I was texting. He said he didn't remember the name. I start crying, because let's face it, I'm drunk, tired and emotional. He tells me that he thought we were close to being "together", which I must say, also shocked me.

He said that he was too hurt and he couldn't even imagine sleeping next to me. By then, it was about 1:30am and I was still nowhere close to sober. I ask him through streaming tears, "Do you want me to leave?", and he says, "Yeah, I think that would be best". At this point, my crying is uncontrollable, and he starts trying to get me to eat a taco, which I of course had no appetite. I get up to pee and come back crying even harder. I don't think he had any idea how upset I was going to be.

He comes over to hug me and tells me he didn't mean to make me cry and that I should stay and we can talk tomorrow. We change into pjs and watch a little tv on the couch silently, and finally decide to go to bed. No kiss goodnight, no cuddling, which suited me just fine. I wish I could remember more of what I said when he confronted me about it, but I was just too drunk. I know I apologized and told him that I liked him a lot, but that I had no idea that he was actually planning on having the "exclusive talk" the next day.

I woke up at 8am on Sunday, with an awful stomach ache. I'll spare you the details but I was in there 6-7 times. Weird thing, I was so light headed and felt like I was going to pass out. Eventually, I threw up twice too. Needless to say, we didn't end up talking about it before I left. And neither of us has texted since I left.

I texted Kelly that morning and told her about the situation, and she was totally on my side. The more I thought back, the more I realize, after I gave him my phone, that's when he disappeared for over an hour. I'm almost positive, he was literally looking through all of my text messages. Which, ok, maybe what I did wasn't right when I'm "talking" to someone, but for him to feel he has the right, when he's not even my boyfriend yet, to look through my private messages? I don't effing think so! He's a very flirty guy, so if I looked through his texts, pretty sure I'd find something that would hurt me as well.

And even worse, to have the conversation at 1am when I'm drunk, and then try to make me drive myself home? I don't know, that leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I think we're both in the wrong, but what he did looks very psycho boyfriend to me. Last thing, we've literally been seeing each other a month, and he told me the first week we were hanging out, that calling someone his gf is a very big deal. He said he'll even date a girl for 3-4 months and she still may not be his gf. So, I in no way saw him as being ready to take that step with me this soon.

 Like I said, I hope this wasn't too hard to follow and all over the place, because my mind is just that. Plus, I've still been sick and light headed with fever, so we'll just blame it on that. Please let me know what you think! Even if it's bitching me out! Because I haven't gotten any objective opinions on it. Am I the one that's wrong? Is he? Or are we both? It may not even matter.. maybe we're done, I don't know. I can't bring myself to text him, but maybe I should.

Another small update! My sickness has pushed my weightloss to 21 pounds! There's one good thing that came from the weekend. I was 174 this morning. 

Please let me lose 9 more pounds by spring break! *Looks to the sky with pleading eyes*

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I love a man that calls..

Guys these days never call.

 Texting is about as far as it goes. And I'm guilty of it too. It's like if you called a guy, just to see what they were up to, they'd be like, "Umm.. So.. What did you need?"

Apple Guy calls me atleast twice a week. Just to see how I am, what I'm doing.. I feel like I'm in high school again and I love it! I think a guy that will actually pick up the phone and call, is showing effort. Things with us are good, although, we're not an "us" yet. Still seeing each other.

I actually went on a date last night with an online guy, and it was awful! We were supposed to go out for sushi this coming Friday, but he asked if I wanted to meet him for a movie last night, so I decided to go. We were meeting at 7:45 for the 8:05 movie. First of all, movies are Never a good place for a first date/meeting. You can barely talk and it's just awkward. Where do I put my hand, so that he can't grab it?  Ok, so I get there and park near him, he gets out of the car, and right away in my head I was thinking, Nope! No way this will amount to anything. He wasn't ugly per se', he looked like his picture, except he was about 30-40lbs heavier. Ugh. Why do people do this? I make very sure that all my pictures are recent, because I want to save myself the embarassment of being that person that had too put old pictures up to get a date. Another thing, I have this thing with men's hands. If they have feminine, or small hands, it creeps me out! I know that's very judgmental, but it just weirds me out. This guy was 6'3" and had hands the size of mine (and I have small hands as it is)!

So we walk up to get tickets, he buys mine, which I appreciated, and then we make awkward small talk until we get to our theater. We sit down and are the only ones in there. There was still 15 minutes until the movie would start. It was like pulling teeth to have a conversation with him. And when he would say anything, he wouldn't make eye contact with me. He's 31 years old, and I don't have the patience with someone who has the people skills of a rock, at that age.

The movie starts, thank God, so atleast we didn't have to talk. Halfway through, he got up to go to the bathroom, and I secretly thought to myself, Please be ditching me and not just going to the bathroom. I even thought, jokingly for the most part, if I could make it out of the theater without him seeing me. I wouldn't have done that! But that's how bad it was. He comes back, of course, and the movie ends shortly after. We walk to our cars, and I was hoping he wasn't going to try to kiss me *gag*. Oh, I forgot to mention he had Braces! Yeah, he failed to mention that as well.

I do the side hug and tell him to drive safe. I secretly hoped he wouldn't text me again, but of course I get the "Had a great time tonight. You looked cute btw". So he texted me today, and asked if we were still on for Friday. I thought out my options, 3 years ago, I would've gone just out of obligation since we had already set those plans. But now, I'm 25 years old and I'm not wasting a Friday night on a guy I don't want anything to do with. I answered him with, "Honestly, you're a very nice, attractive guy that has old pictures on your profile, but I got more of a friend vibe from you. And I don't want either of us to waste our time." It worked, he said he had a feeling and told me to take care.

Not that Apple Guy and I are exclusive, but I started to feel a little guilty. I mean I barely hugged this guy, but I still couldn't help but think I'd be having much more fun if I was with [Apple Guy]. So even though we haven't talked about being exclusive, I think going on this shitty date made me realize how much I really am starting to like him. And maybe I don't want to see other people. Obviously, I'm not going to let him know that yet. I've been doing a good job at playing hard to get. But I think it's because I feel secure in his feelings for me. Which right now is just liking each other, and he tells me all the time. When it's been a few days since we've seen each other, he says cute things like, "I kinda miss you".. but not in a needy way. We just enjoy each other's company. And for only meeting a month ago, we're already pretty comfortable around one another.

This weekend, his roommate (who's in a band) is performing at a cool place in Houston, so we're going to that and then I'm staying the night with him. Updates to come on that.

Last thing!
I made a tshirt necklace.

Whatcha think?
Ok that's a shitty picture. I'm wearing it out tonight so I'll try to take a couple pictures.
I like them though. They're cheap, easy and cute!

Ok really last thing. Weighed myself this morning, and was 179.2. Back in the 170s to stay this time!

Hope everyone enjoys the rest of their Wednesday!

Friday, February 17, 2012

My Valentine's Day date

Hello Lovelies!

Sorry, I know I said I'd do this post yesterday, but I had an aggravating day, and made it home hours later than I expected. But anyways.. On to Valentine's!

I had decided a couple days before February 14th, that I should probably get Apple Guy something. Just a little something and a non-mushy card. He was taking me to dinner after all. Well, I procrastinated and there I was Tuesday morning, trying to figure out what to buy him. I brainstormed with my best friend, Kelly, who had met him the weekend before. He had told us a funny story about throwing a fit in Kmart when he was 5 because he wanted another He-Man action figure. (I linked that because I had no idea what it was when he was telling me about it). So we decided it would be cute if I could find a He-Man toy somewhere to give to him as a funny, thoughtful gift. I start researching online and they don't have them anywhere. Well except Amazon, and I didn't have time for that lol.

In the meantime, AG texted me asking what time I'd make it to his apartment. I told him that I had an errand to run after work and then I'd be there. He responds with, "Errand? You're not getting me a gift, right?" I waited a little bit to answer and said, "Yes, but just a little something :)". His response to this is, "Ughh well my gift to you is dinner, hun". I told him that was fine. I didn't expect him to get me anything. I mean, of course a girl can hope that she gets flowers. Even if they're cheap grocery store ones. But I wasn't upset or anything. After calling 6 different Targets to find a He-Man dvd, I finally found one.

I get off work and start heading into Houston. I get to Target and they actually have two dvds, volume 1 & 2. They're literally $5, so I contemplate buying both. But then I think, I don't want to seem like I'm putting too much emphasis on this holiday when we're not even together. Thinking back now I'm like, Really, Brittany? Like one more $5 dvd would have made any difference?  Whatever, I think way too much into things. Aaaanyways, I grab the dvd and a really funny card with a guy's buttcrack on the front. Ok, maybe I overcompensated the fact that I didn't want a mushy card but oh well.

I head to his apartment and when I get there, I put his gift in my purse so he can't see it. He meets me at the door and says he needs to take a shower and do some laundry and that I was welcome to chill on the couch and watch tv. I got there about 4:30 and our dinner reservations weren't till 8:15 so it was no big deal. I settle on the couch to watch The Dog Whisperer while he showers. He comes in the living room when he's done and watches tv with me for a little bit and then starts getting his laundry together. I'm sure you're all wondering why the details of this is relevant, but you'll see. He's about to load the washing machine and I hear him say, "Shit, [my roommate] used the last of the detergent last night!". And I'm like, "Well, just wait and do laundry later." He says that he has way too much laundry to wait (which there was a lot).

So he asks if I mind if he runs to the store to get detergent real quick, which I don't. I was wearing heels and really didn't feel like doing unnecessary walking, so he told me just to stay and relax and watch tv. He leaves and I continue watching tv. Some time goes by and I'm like, Geez it's been like 40 minutes since he left. A few minutes later, I hear his key in the door. He opens the door and walks in carrying laundry detergent and these beauties.......................

Talk about surprising me!!! Of course, the first, inappropriate, words out of my mouth are, "You little shit!". Ha, I do love surprises, but now I felt bad only getting him a little $5 dvd.  He really got that one past me. Obviously, I thanked him. And then I asked, "So were you planning this the whole time?" and he said he had. I didn't see it coming, and it was a breath of fresh air to realize that not all romance is lost. I mean, I've had serious boyfriends that didn't do things like this for me, and we're just "hanging out/talking". I'm pretty impressed.

I gave him his card, to which he laughed his ass off and was grossed out at the same time. And he actually really liked the dvd. I think he appreciated that I remember the little things like that. After the shirt he was planning on wearing was clean, he got dressed and we were ready to go. He looked very cute. Dark jeans, red shirt, sweater over it, with a tie. I wore the same dress from my birthday (since he hadn't seen me in it) and black hose and heels. I had to drive since his car didn't pass inspection, which he profusely apologized for. He told me we were going to a cute Spanish restaurant called Tintos, which served wine and tapas. It was adorable! Very classy and the food was amazing!

First thing I ordered were empanadas with some special avocado-lime-ranch tasting sauce. Yum yum. Then I had some sort of potatoes with different sauces. I know SO specific haha. Well he's Costa Rican so he was telling me what everything was. He ordered us a bottle of wine to share and we had a really good time. At one point he said, "So are you having a good time? I mean, are you glad we met and have been getting to know each other?". So cute. We finished by sharing some shrimp (see tails above) and then flan. I kinda took the picture a little too late, but the food was so good I didn't want to take the time to get my phone out.

He paid the bill and we drove back to his apartment. I went in for a little while and ended up falling asleep on his couch. He woke me up at midnight so that I could get home and get some sleep for work the next day. So, all in all, I'd say I had a pretty fantastic Valentine's Day!

Ok, so total change of subject, but I've been thinking about getting bangs. Like straight-across bangs. Not the extremely thick, blunt ones though. I can't decide though. Summers here are extremely hot, so I'm sure they'd get gross and sweaty then. Another thing, I have a somewhat round face. I've never been able to really decide what my face shape really is, but it's got to be between oval and round. Unfortunately, I carry weight in my cheeks. I just don't know if they'd look good on me. But, I've had the side swept bangs for years and I'm ready for a change. I just read this article so maybe I'll measure my face when I get home. Gosh I sound ridiculous lol.

Ok, examples of what I like:

And you can even still push them to the side like this...

Ok ladies! I need your help! What do you think? And please be honest, you won't hurt my feelings. Leave me a comment, please! :)

Sorry this post was waaay longer than I predicted.

Happy Friday everyone!!!!

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Happy Valentine's Day! (A Day Late)

How was everyone's Valentine's Day??
Anyone have any hot, sexy dates? ;)

So last Thursday, Apple Guy and I planned on having sushi. I got to his apartment wearing a cute dress, hose and heels, with my hair all curled, and we had a drink before we were ready to head out for sushi. Let me say this man compliments me more than any other man I've ever met.. And I freaking love it! He never shuts up about my hair, eyes, smile, boobs haha.

But anyways, he gets done telling me how pretty I look and then he says, "Ok, I want to ask you something now, before we have a couple drinks and I sound stupid." I'm like.. "Ooooook." So he sits down next to me and says, "I know we don't know where this is going yet, but would you like to have Valentine's dinner with me?" It was totally adorable! Of course I said yes.

I'll write a separate post on my Valentine's date though.

So, as far as weight loss, I've been pretty much stuck going back and forth between 178-180. I actually JUST finished working out before starting this post. I ordered the 10 minute trainer, that's made by the same guy that does all the P90X dvds. It came with 5 different workouts that are only 10 minutes each. I did the total body 10 minute workout and whew, I was sweaty and out of breath! After literally just ten minutes. I have 3 weeks until my trip to Florida and I'm going to do my best to do ATLEAST one of the workouts a day. Maybe if I'm feeling crazy, I'll do 2 or 3 in a day. If I could lose 10-12 pounds in 3 weeks, I'd be ecstatic. But that's a pretty big number, so realistically, I'll say 8 pounds.

Alright bloggy friends, check back tomorrow for details about my vday date ;)

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Feels like I've been gone forever!

So how have you all been??

Let's see.. quite a bit has happened since I last posted. About a week ago we had the big, long talk with my parents and sister about the divorce. That was a blast, let me tell you. I won't do a big long depressing post on it, I promise. The gist of it.. My Dad is, in fact, gay. It's crazy, but I don't love him any less and of course I accept him. My sister took it better than I expected her to, as well. Enough of that lol.
I also turned 25, 3 days ago. Last Thursday, Apple Guy and I decided to go see a movie, since I'm getting off work at 3 now. I decided on The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. It was fucking amazing!!! If you haven't seen it yet, get your butt to the theaters today! I want to read the books now that I saw the movie.
But anyways, I picked him up (since it's still hard for him to drive) and we headed to the movies. He told me as we were getting out of the car, that he was treating me to everything, since he wouldn't get to see me on my birthday. We got our tickets and then he wanted to get me a drink and popcorn, and then himself some nachos. We lugged all that to our seats and waited for the movie to start.
As far as what we are.. I have no clue. And I'm ok with that, we've said from the beginning that we want to be/stay friends no matter what happens between us. But as we're sitting in the movies, he grabs my hand to hold it, and then kisses it. Which, I'm definitely not complaining about, but that's not something I do (hold hands) with someone that I'm just friends with and kiss occasionally. So that confuses me a bit. After the movie was over, we get back into my car and it's around 7:30pm. He tells me that he has some old coworkers coming over to make him dinner because of his surgery. He tells me I'm welcome to come and eat as well, even though I was a little iffy about it, I decided to accept his invitation. All his old coworkers were super nice and friendly. We ate and drank and had a good time.
Around 9:30, Apple Guy asks them if they want to go out to a bar nearby. They all agree and he asks if I can go, since I have work at 8 in the morning. I figure I'll go for a little bit. We get there, have more drinks and shots and he kiddingly suggests that I just stay at his place for the night and call in to work the next morning, since it's almost my birthday. After all those drinks, I decide it's a fantastic idea. So, we literally stay at the bar till 2am, get back to his apartment and make ourselves another drink (even though it was the last thing we needed). He gets me an Apple tshirt to sleep in, since I was wearing a dress and leggings. We get into bed, talk, joke, laugh and finally cuddle up to go to sleep.
I won't bore you with the next morning and day, because it was mostly just spent hanging in our pj's watching tv. But, I'm starting to really like him. A lot more than I thought I would. I feel like I think/say this about all guys I start to like, but I feel like he's different. I know that totally makes me sound like a naive idiot that can't stop being hopeful about every new guy that shows up in my life. But he really does seem different! I hate to even say that because I feel like I'll jinx it.
You know what else I think jinxes things? You're all going to think I'm crazy, but everytime I decide to change a guy's text tone from the default tone to something that's only for him, it seems like everything goes to shit after that. Ha, I totally do sound nuts, but it really does seem to happen that way. Oh and I changed his last week, so here we go! Fingers crossed it won't happen this time!
Oh and for my birthday this past Saturday, my bestie, Kelly, took me to Aveda to have a facial and back treatment. It was awesome! And then we went out to some bars downtown that night. Here's the only two pictures I took on my birthday.

By the way, I used my new Remington ceramic curling wand from Target, and I LOVE it!

Hope you all have a fantastic Tuesday!